Vegan blabbing and a photo drop.

Hello Darlings.

Hello Hello! I swear darlings I haven't forgotten a single one of you, or about my precious blog. It's simply that work has picked up quite a bit! I need to work out a schedule so I can keep up with regular posts. 
How are all of you? A while ago I mentioned a little road trip I went on and I thought I would share a few photos and since I knew that wouldn't take up the whole post I thought I would talk a little about being vegan. So if you're interested, scroll scroll scroll! :)

 One of the many rivers/lakes we crossed on the two hour trip. It was too pretty to pass up a shot.

Cheddar's Restaurant.

 Can you believe they ate 6 onion rings and there were still over 20 left on the plate? It was insanity! Also realize we ordered the small appetizer size and this is considered a small. Mind boggling!!

The Frankenstein caramel apple I wanted to buy, but it was a halloween special and it was still a week away. Boo! ... hoo hoo. :( Actually I bet it wouldn't taste that good because of the fondant? I can't tell if it's that or dyed chocolate but that stuff is usually too sickly sweet or fake tasting to actually gnaw or digest. But I give it a 7 for cuteness.

speaking of cute...

Can anyone explain to me why I'm getting such huge gaps when I add gifs like this? It's odd. Thanks in advance darlings!

First off let me throw out a tiny disclaimer of some sort. In all honestly, I haven't been a vegan long so if you ask me about a certain product I may not know it, but I would be happy to test it out and talk about it. However my "noob-ness" of sorts shouldn't count me out since any ounce of knowledge at all is still knowledge! :)

For instance, I made vegan banana bread today and it was incredibly tasty. It just happened to work out for me because my bananas were getting too ripe and my papa has a lot of stevia around because he's diabetic. (vegans don't eat white sugar but do use natural sweeteners like stevia, agave or sucanat.) For those of you who aren't aware white sugar is processed by filtering it through bone char. "( charcoal made from animal bones*) uhm, gross. [[ http://www.vegsource.com/jo/qa/qasugar.htm]]*

Crunchy but moist 100% vegan banana bread. yum!

I'm not going to lie to you, breaking my sugar addiction was a very hard thing to do. However now that I do not need sugar like I used to, I personally can feel how much happier my body is without the sugar rushes and crashes or needing a sugar "fix."

Also keep in mind it gets easier the longer you stick with it. I've been modifying my diet for over a month and taking baby vegan steps along the way. I promise my blog won't turn into a "Eat this! Not that!" manifesto and I won't bring it up unless I have something relevant to talk about or another recipe to share.

Have a great week darlings!

Lady :)

The Goth Challenge Day Two: Share photos and experiences of your babybat days.

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  Hello Darlings!  (how I felt writing this post ^^^)

How was your day? Currently I'm still on vacation and in two days I'll be doing a college visit. I plan to make a mini post about my road trip today with a few funny photos I collected.

Now on to the actual post. :)

Share photos and experiences of your babybat days. 

Well, first off I was a little iffy about writing this post. I get a bit moody when talking about my past. Also to be honest I hated taking photos when I was younger. I had a serious phobia of the camera, I swear. Nowadays it isn't so bad but I still shy away from the camera from time to time. So I hope I get a small round of applause for actually finding a few photos. Plus I seriously deleted every single image of my face I could find back then. It's baffling.

These photos are from my high school "babybat days." I don't have any any earlier than my sophomore year although I was  dressing darker in eighth grade. Also please realize that while these may not be the greatest they do show my "oh so artistic" state of mind and how I believed I could never smile or how over the top makeup was mandatory. You'll see the photo I'm talking about.

Commence my embarrassment x)

my baby. I miss him. No smiling and black shirt/jeans

me posing with a mirror. But I love that cateye. What a pro haha.

Moving on to experiences. Well I'd say I had really mixed experiences. Some funny and some just plain hell. I still don't know why but I'm one of those personality types that could dye my hair blonde; wear a pink dress with matching heels, smile all day and someone would still point out I have a "dark personality." I bring this up because I never once said I was goth when I was growing up. I simply didn't care. I wore what I wanted and basically ignored everyone around me when I realized being nice and making friends was a totally fruitless attempt. So when my classmates would strike up a conversation with me (which was basically never) or made a snide comment or remark the word 'goth' would frequently pop up. One experience of mine was that every day when I walked into my sophomore math class one guy would ask me "You're goth aren't you?" as I passed him to get to my seat. I hope you can appreciate how annoyed I would get at being labeled something I hadn't declared or really didn't care about. I only saw the term as something new to get tortured for.

Not to be dramatic or depressing but the majority of my experiences were really shitty! I was called weird, a freak. I'd be the butt of a rumor or a joke constantly, get poked in the back for a whole class period (and even when I politely asked a teacher to move I'd be denied) and the poking would continue. (I had to endure a week of it because whenever I moved seats the kid behind me would kindly give their seat to my taunter until I turned around and practically screamed at the guy when we were in the middle of class. After that I was deemed "crazy" by everyone. I would have my locker trashed and my things stolen. I literally would hide in one of the lesser used bathrooms and sit in there with my ipod and a book for as long as I could.

I was even mocked when I spoke. It got so bad I hated speaking in front of the class because they would make faces and mock me getting tongue tied. It continued until senior year. I actually stopped mid-presentation once, burst into tears and just walked out. Because I was told no one wanted to hear my voice and I was better off being unseen and unheard. So I definitely can empathize with those still in school or who are still going through crap like this.

I plan to feed them to oogie boogie >:)

So, happy experiences... I don't want to leave this post on a sad story like that. Oh! There was a guy who was nice to me. One time I was wearing black and white striped tights, and he goes "It isn't Halloween yet." I "wittily" replied, "Haven't you heard that every day is Halloween? Besides I like them." He then continued, "I like them too." 

Another time we were both in the office, and I got yelled at and written up for excessive eyeshadow. When I saw him again by our lockers he said "I don't think you have too much on. It looks cool."

I also got to know our school janitors really well and they were protective of me. My art teacher also spent a lot of time talking with me and spent more time on my projects than the others. 

I look back now and thank the heavens for those small pieces of kindness in my life and my friends who kept me afloat or I don't know how bitter and twisted I would have turned out. Actually I'm going to spread a little loving on them right now. I hope you found my post of some worth and if not at least I hope you know I'm here anytime to listen and empathize with you if you're going through something like this.

pacificari et stabiliri,

Lady.

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About Me

Hello Darlings.

If you hurry over I'd be happy to share my cupcakes with you. Unless my dad has already eaten all of them. I just saw him walking towards the kitchen again, not good. I had the craving for a bite of chocolate so I made chocolate cupcakes with cream cheese frosting tonight. I love to bake, and baking on a dark rainy night is even better. :)

But I digress. I wanted to make a short post about me. Personally I think blogs are more interesting when I know a little bit about the other person. The face behind the mask if you will.

So... Well, I'm a 20 year old female. I'll be 21 in 3 months so I'm beyond excited about that. Black Light Birthday Party here I come!

 

 I'm studying to become a Clinical psychologist and work with children and teens. My personal philosophy is "it's easier to heal the wound now than figure out how to deal with the gangrene later down the road."  That's just something I say when faced with sticky situations. It isn't pointed towards what I think about those who need counseling or troubled kids or anything like that.
 

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 I love black and white horror movies and comedies. My favorite movie is Dracula: Dead and Loving it. My cousin let me watch it with him when I was around 9 or 10 because he knew how much I enjoyed vampire movies. That was around the same time I saw a "goth girl" and have enjoyed the fashion and subculture ever since. Now I won't sit here and pretend that a 9 year old girl would understand the whole subculture. But I had a love of the spooky and that's a good start. Not to mention that when I was 12 I begged my mom to let me dye my hair black. [I wanted to be Wednesday Addams.]

 

Now when I say I saw a goth girl, I do mean goth. Although to be fair I don't know what music she liked. I remember a head of flaming red hair, a safety pin in her eyebrow (for her own amusement) and the greatest pair of stomping boots I have ever seen. That's probably why I love boots even to this day! She was my fashion idol, my clothing crush. She was always in fishnets and perfectly done makeup whenever I saw her hanging out with my cousin. He was five years older than me so I always looked up to him and his friends, especially that one girl. She was a red headed Adora batbrat, haha.

I bring her up because fashion is a big part of my self image. I had a very conservative mother (Wait, wait don't close the page just yet. I don't dress like this to displease her!)
She always picked out my clothes. Seriously she would go shopping and hold an ugly outfit up and say "I'm buying this for you." Yeah, not happening. So when I had that freedom to buy my own clothes and really show me and what I enjoyed it was an amazing feeling. Which is why I have so much fun today. I think not having that freedom to express myself growing up has made me really perceptive to how I present myself today. Maybe I'll write about some of the kooky things I did when I was little to dress the way I wanted sometime.

But other than that I love art, the outdoors, books and animals. Can I be more cliché? Although I honestly am always doodling or spending time outdoors with a book. I'm going broke over sunscreen and always buying more books! Not to mention all the stray animals that found their way indoors because I adopted them. Three rescue dogs and I've lost track of how many cats I had at my Nana's house. I'll have to tell you all about the time my cousin and I tried to baptize all the kittens sometime. Hahaha....

What else can I say about me? When I lived nearer to Lake Michigan we used to spend practically all our weekends on a secret beach on the lake. I love water. Which is also why I love kayaking. I love spending all my time out, on and in the water. Between you and me, I think I was a mermaid in a past life. That's the only way it would make my water addiction more credible. [[Stop looking at me like I'm crazy, it's beginning to hurt my feelings.]]

Well, I don't really have anything else to add besides I'm really sarcastic and I'm always trying to think of new things to try or do. I meant for this to be a short post and I feel like I've written a book!

(Oh, I plan to get my motorcycle license this summer. I had to throw that in haha. I love motorcycles. I've wanted once ever since I was 10. I guess that was an intense year for my personal preferences huh?) 

Oh. I meant to show you guys my favorite new cup

It's a tumbler I found in the Halloween section of Walmarts. It was $5 max. Disco skeletons hehehe.
I instantly grabbed it and said to my dad "I'm not leaving without this."

If you guys have any questions or something you'd like to hear about or another craft just let me know. Othewise I was thinking of asking Juliets Lace to do the goth challenge. I don't know if we have to ask her or not since she was the one that started it, I just wanted to be polite. I'm the person who asks first instead of having to choke out an apology later.

Also I have more photos of another craft in process coming soon. I'm using some paint to change some ugly old wedge sandals into a hot "new" pair. Well I'm off to wrap birthday presents and listen to CruxShadows. Have a good night darlings.

Lady over and out.

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